A calling without a Caller is futile.
That may be just my problem.
Always in search of one source that consumes my everything, supposedly that should be God BUT
Always wondering, dabbling then doubtful as to what my passion is.
Afraid that 30 years later, with or without children, I will still be in the same state of search, doubt and lostness.
Then I decided on a last resort, I have to first seek the Caller. For what my friend said is right – you can’t have a calling if you don’t know the Caller. So here I am, willing myself to a 30 minute bible study and prayer time per day because there just doesn’t seem anyway getting around it.